Now I See You: A Memoir - Nicole C. Kear

I received a free copy of this book from the publisher via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review, thank you!


I'm not really used to reading memoirs, and it feels a bit odd to rate this book (it feels a bit like I'm rating someone's life, which I'm not, I'm just rating how much I enjoyed reading about it).


Nicole is 19 when she's diagnosed with retinitis pigmentosa, a untreatable genetic disorder that causes her to gradually loose her sight and eventually will turn her blind. Nicole gets in a state of complete denial for as long as possible, trying to make the best of life. And, despite what the blurb says, she doesn't run away with the circus, she only spends one summer on circus-school.


Blindess is fascinating, but mostly in the 'I really hope it never happens to me/someone I know' kind of way. This story was interesting and at times even funny. She tries to keep her deteriorating sight a secret as long as possible, and even though she decides quite often she can't continue this way, this what she ends up doing every time. Understandable, because admitting would feel like surrendering to the disease.